Do you ever wonder what the purpose of your current situation is and whether or not you are meant to stay in the state that you are (even if you don't like it)?
I got my mid-year review yesterday and it only increased my dislike for my job. My boss knows I am leaving and only said things that, not only aren't true, but he knew they would get under my skin. Such as, I need to be retrained on stocking supplies. This comment stemmed from ONE incident where I did not fill the dog food barrel for my coworker. I don't work Fridays (because I work Sundays) and I do this to help the Friday workers (even though it only takes about 30 seconds). I was busy doing lab work and had a meeting that day so I simply forgot. My coworker knew this and could have done it himself but he didn't and he went to our boss. I apologized and it hasn't happened again. He also stated that I should come in on Fridays to help out, which he told me previously to only do if everyone else is swamped.. they aren't swamped.
Sooo...I am currently in the should I stay or should I go situation. I feel as if I am wasting my time in a position (AKA job) that I hate with people I couldn't care less for. I work Sundays and can't enjoy the ministry I love because I can't attend most of the functions. My coworkers are rude, obnoxious and downright unprofessional. My boss is a very immature jokester who nobody takes seriously and I feel trapped in this position until April. On the flip side, however, I feel very ungrateful. Ungrateful because I have a job that pays decent, gets me what I want and need and I complain constantly about it. Ungrateful because I am marrying an amazing man, who loves me for who I am and treats me like I am his entire world yet I sometimes do not let myself enjoy his love because I am focused on how much I hate my job. Ungrateful because I am very blessed but sometimes, I can only look at the things that aren't going well.
I am not trapped in this position as I stated before. I could leave this job and start another only to quit in May to go back to school. I could quit this job and flip burgers or run a cash register. The only thing is, deep down I like the perks of my job. I like being off by 3:30 almost everyday. I like having almost 2 weeks off at Christmas time off (with only having to feed the animals). I like working with my good friend, Amber, who works for the QC department.
Most of the time, though, it feels like the cons outweigh the pros. I am leaving in April, which is only 8 months away and I know I need to pray for patience and perseverance. Eight months means only 30 more Sundays and in the grand scheme of things is a short period of time.
I really needed to put this down and hopefully with a little prayer and a little love from my friends I will stop having such a negative attitude and will be more able to enjoy the gifts I have so graciously been given.
Love, Ken's future wife